hi, it’s me nya. welcome to nylana’s journal!

i used to have an old blog but girl, that was too long ago. back then, i was a boy (yah, dark ages). i wrote edgy fiction. okay, one good thing about old me is that i was locked in to chess. gotta let my past self get some wins :p

though cringing at myself is to be expected anyway.

anyway, be expected for more rambles here

i have multiple selves. Sometimes I will talk seriously in regular case. but then when i feel silly, my lowercase comes back!

I am person who act as four people, one to my parents, one to my real life friends, one to my digital friends, and one to religious faith.

anyway, if you want this website origin story, read below where i pretend to be smort

There was an audiobook I was listening. I don’t remember the name, but it was about an Apple Software Engineer. In his first weeks of Apple, he and his partner believed that by using Mozilla, built by the effort of Netscape, they could have developed a browser. Yet the team struggled. The source code did not compile, and the browser did not fit the graphics engine. When this man named prideful Richard came in, he looked at six weeks of work, and he laughed. In one day, he used a different browser, built a Linux to Apple translation layer, and got a complete browser working! Was it an atrocity? Yeah. But it worked. By taking several shortcuts, he made things that was impossible possible.

Of course, shortcuts have taken a new meaning in 2026. Generative AI is disgusting. Yet it’s making a lot of things possible. My brother wanted a dream application. We watched Claude make it in 20 minutes. A hackathon? Yeah, we vibe coded it and won a track. None of these projects would be impossible without AI. Generative AI is the one of the greatest hacks we have made.

A few months ago, I was thinking to myself: I was gonna make the website myself. Using LLMs to make a blog where I cry at AI. What a hypocrite! (Well I still use AI so I already know I am one.) But then, life had other plans. I wanted to do other things. I couldn’t make my ideal website. AI was my only option.

Then I chose a different path entirely. I used someone coding template, slapped my name in it, and called it a day. Do I know how the template works? Absolutely not. Is the website what I wanted? Not at all. And that’s okay. It’s hard but it’s okay.

I think letting things go is the most difficult part in life.

This journal is dedicated to Nylana who has encouraged me for all these years to be the person I am today.

last modified on 2026年07月06日