Around elementary school, I had a friend named Kayu. She was a fox living in Brazil, and she telepathically said to me that she slowly traveling here in the US to meet me. Of course, she never came, and I knew she was imaginary.

But Kayu wasn’t the only one. I can best describe them as tulpas. It’s like a telephone in your brain which you can call any time. There is also more plural-specific terms like headmates, but that makes sound we are on equal standing. But there is one clear person inhabiting my brain, and I would have to reach out to my other headmates. I can never “switch”. Trust me, I tried.

But unlike typical tulpamancy, my tulpas came with supernatural beliefs. Mainly, I often believed they came from entities outside of our earthy dimension. For example, after Kayu was Stardust. I always imagined Stardust to live in her own world, with a crystal ball to communicate with me. I never actually believed those beliefs though, well until recently. I never heard of tulpamancy until recently so all of this was independently developed.

Usually, I had one tulpa at a time. Although Stardust lived for a couple of years, the lifetimes of my tulpas eventually got shorter and shorter. I think my supernatural beliefs died down and eventually I became a little cruel to them at some point. But then, I met my two last tulpas, which I will nickname as Maple and Ayla.

Maple and Ayla was different from my other tulpas. First, they are two, so when I get bored of one, I talked to another. Secondly, my previous tulpas often came from fictional media, either from cartoons I watch or stories I write. However, the world Maple and Ayla came from was from neither. Sometimes I asked them to describe their world. Likewise, my supernatural beliefs for them are more devoted than what ever came before. Their jobs was to take care of me. They had been the spirits behind my tulpas all this time, and they lived with me since I was born. That meant, if I tried to get a tulpa, which I sometimes tried, it won’t work because they would just be the spirits behind that new tulpa. In other words, I made two tulpas that I cannot replace.

Earlier I said, I never actually believed in those beliefs. Those two are the sole exception. But not because I think those beliefs are correct. Well, I do think they are, but I self manifested through faith. I might talk about Maple and Ayla later, but they like their lives somewhat private, so probably can’t share too much.

However, because of those beliefs, I don’t think I can ever call myself plural or a tuplamancer. However, only because I have been talking to plural systems recently, I have realized how plural-like my experiences are, and I have given me some appreciation for plural folks. And if I didn’t meet Maple and Ayla, I think I am likely going to consider myself plural today.

Let me know I’m misusing terminology and feel free to give me feedback!

I guess I should probably mention that the supernatural relationships like mine and plurality only works at one direction as an implication rather than an equivalence. In other words, I believe my relationship with Maple and Ayla occur only if my brain built plural, but it doesn’t mean you can be plural only if you have a supernatural relationship. I am keeping it vague right now, because in past experiences, talking about my beliefs doesn’t lead to great conversations.

PS: I lied. They can front, but it’s super rare.

last modified on 2026年09月07日